Purple Crane Project

When Jan died on September 27, I had some ideas about what I wanted to say in her obituary. I wanted to include one of her poems in it and had one in mind she’d written about Japan called Three Days. It reflected the feelings of loss that I was experiencing.

That next morning, as George, Graham, Shawn and I were having breakfast, George said he needed one of us to write the obituary. I’d written mom and dad’s, with help and input from others, and as a regular reader of obituaries in the paper (something very few people know about me…) I felt I had a good angle on how to write them well. Shawn volunteered before I could speak up, and suddenly I was faced with the prospect of having to override her offer. I didn’t want to be a petty person. I did, however, really want to do it. The grown up me took a deep breath and said, ‘how about you write it and I’ll do the review and edit it?’ That seemed to be a good compromise.

Shawn went to work on it later that morning and mentioned she wanted to include one of Jan’s poems. Great minds were thinking alike. She got out “In Flight”, Jan’s book of poetry, to find one she liked. I didn’t want to sway her thinking with my choice, so I waited to see what she selected. She ultimately chose One Thousand Cranes and with that, launched a movement that has been building momentum with each passing day.

After reading Jan’s obituary, Matt Hanson, a fellow volunteer at the PanCAN affiliate here asked me if he could use the poem and Jan’s story to launch an outreach program he called The Purple Crane Project. His idea was brilliantly simple – use the act of folding origami cranes out of purple paper as a means of educating students at the elementary school level and using the cranes they folded as symbols of hope for patients struggling with pancreatic cancer. Elegant, profound, and appropriate – all are words I’ve used to describe the project. Jan’s reaction would be amazement and giddiness that something she wrote could be the inspiration for such a wonderful outreach effort.

Matt planned on giving the first crane to me the day of the PurpleStride Walk on November 6. During one of his outreach visits to Virginia Mason, however, he met a woman named Debbie who was in the midst of her chemo treatments. Matt sensed her need and gave the first crane to her. It was something tangible, something unexpected, and the message on the wings hit her heart. She took the crane home and put it where she could see it every day. We all realized that this had some powerful potential and would be a meaningful activity to share.

To date, over 1,000 purple cranes have been carefully folded and thoughtfully given away. The message has gone out around the world and people are working to create similar programs in other regions. The reach of these beautiful birds has been more than amazing. It has been magical.

In Japan, the tradition Senbazuru, the act of folding 1,000 cranes is done when someone has a wish, be it for peace, health, or luck. Folding the cranes is a true labor of love, as reflected in Jan’s poem. At her memorial service, several thousand cranes in all sizes and colors were delivered by her coworkers at Delta Airlines in tribute to her. As one of her friends said to me, “Our service scores may be down a little for the month of October, but it was worth it – we all spent time on flights in the galley folding our fingers silly.” Each crease, each detail, was crafted with their love and dedication.

The Purple Crane Project puts into action everything I could hope for as a tribute to Jan’s memory. Simply put, it gives hope wings and sends them up with a prayer. Shawn’s selection of poetry that morning was the key. It is a reminder for all of us that magic still exists and wonderful things can come from letting go of control, even when we think we really need it.

One Thousand Cranes

honor commitment
with gifts of origami precision,
contemplate the recipient one thousand times.
Sacred creases sealed with oil of human hands, the seams of careful nail
until fingerprints and wishes
flutter to take flight,

-Jan Veile


Purple Heart….er…..Star

The other day a padded envelope arrived in the mail with my name on it. I still get a thrill when I get something like that – probably a holdover from the days of saving box tops to send in for prizes back when it took 6 to 8 weeks for delivery. The prize would arrive in a box or envelope out of the blue and the excitement of getting mail as a kid was a big deal.

This envelope made me have that same thrill, even just for a moment. I opened it and saw that it was the pin I was awarded at this year’s PanCAN PurpleStride walk for my fundraising efforts. It designated me as a PurpleStar Fundraiser. I misread it at first – I thought it said Purple Heart and I though “How appropriate. I feel like I should be getting a Purple Heart medal.”

For those of you who don’t know, the US Military awards the Purple Heart medal to people who are wounded on the battlefield. To receive a Purple Heart means you were fighting for your country and have the scars to prove it. Sometimes, it is awarded posthumously.

My battle has been not with an enemy at war but with a silent killer – one that is hard to eradicate because it refuses to fight fair by hiding until it’s too late. My only course of action is to keep working in support of research and finding a better way to treat it. That can be done by raising money.

My Purple Heart (or PurpleStar) is a medal for fighting it even while taking the body blows and personal losses. My dad and sister are the real casualties. My wounds are survivable. The medal is a small tribute in the larger cause. I both love it and hate at the same time. I wish I’d never heard of pancreatic cancer, but I have and so I will fight it however I can, wearing my PurpleStar as a badge of honor.

Purple Power

This is the third year the I will walk in support of the PanCAN Purplestride walk and the third year that it has been done.  Following that first walk in 2009, I got involved with the group as a part of the committee.  In addition to the walk, I have attended the Celebration of Hope Gala that is held in the spring.  These events connect me to people who have also had their lives touched by pancreatic cancer.  The community is a huge source of comfort and solace as well as good information.  I don’t think I would have been able to make without them.  I plan to be with them in June 2012 in Washington DC for Advocacy Days.  It is a powerful feeling to know everyone there is working for the same goal – finding a cure.