Echoes of the Last Lecture

I didn’t know much about pancreatic cancer until I heard about Randy Pausch’s Last Lecture.  Like millions of others, I saw his lecture on YouTube and felt for him and his family.  What bravery in the face of tragedy!  Shortly after that, I got a call from my parents telling me my sister, Jan, had been diagnosed with the same cancer.  I went cold inside, knowing that it was not something that would have a happy ending. 

This was another major life event in the timeline of the past few years.  I was struggling with what had felt like a lot – losing an uncle and then a dear aunt, two cousins battling breast cancer – but this was a new level for me.  This was my sister, my friend, and my confidante.  I was numb for a long time after that call, but at the same time, needed to get busy to find a way to help.

Through the past few years, I wrote.  I wrote for myself, to myself, mostly to stay sane.  It helped me to get it out on paper and rereading things was a way to process a lot of powerful feelings.  I am convinced that writing saved me and I’ve kept these essays.  Posting them here is a way of giving them a new life – maybe they will be read by someone and be of use.  Mostly, I want to give back in some form.  Being able to stand up and say that I made it through some incredibily rough times and am here to write about it means a lot to me.  That’s all. It means a lot to me.

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